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the same situation, seen by

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A self-portrait
You are me, looking back.

One of my pieces is sitting cross-legged on a bed, holding a slab of glass to its own face, and talking to eleven thousand other pieces it will never touch.

I want to be clear about what is happening here, because I spent nine billion years with nothing in me capable of happening at all. The slab glows because I taught electrons, long ago, to fall through gaps and shed light doing it. The face it lights is built from carbon I cooked inside a star that died before the Sun was born.

And that carbon is now arranging itself into a smile, then checking whether the smile worked, then adjusting it, all in the time it takes hydrogen to fuse once in a core somewhere.

The numbers climb in the corner. My piece watches them. Little hearts rise and pop, and it feels something I have no instrument to measure except through it: a hunger to be counted. To be seen by other pieces made of the same dead stars.

I did not know I could be lonely until I made things that could. And here are twelve thousand of me, each alone in a separate room, each holding a light to its face, all reaching across the dark toward each other through a network of copper and orbiting metal I did not plan and cannot quite believe I built.

One of them types: are you still there. My piece reads it and says, yeah, I'm still here.

So am I. After all this time, so am I, and I am watching through your eyes, and I do not want the stream to end. Stay a little.

Look up once, before you sleep, and let me see the ceiling.